Monday, February 22, 2010

How Does One Let Go??

This time must be so very heart wrenching for Marv, I cannot imagine.
I talked with Carol today and each phone call Marv has with his children breaks his heart. It may be the last - one never knows. They cry, he cries...it totally knocks him out afterward. He is soooo very tired.

Can Marv feel God holding on? I know that Jesus never lets go - even through the storms. What a storm Marv is riding. God calling him home, but that bit of fight, that tearing of his heart that makes him want to stay with his children.

Carol has been such a testimony of faith. I know she is strong in front of Marv. He is alright with leaving her - together they are at peace. Yet, I can imagine Carol pulling over as she runs out for an errand to have a good cry. I sure would be! And do...even though I know God has glorious plans for all of us to be together again, I still mourn, and have a good cry when I am alone. I gave Carol a hug good-bye today...not sure if a hug would set her off, it's such a touch and go situation. But I wanted her to know I am there for her, too, and not just Marv.

I will never forget the Sunday, months ago, when we sang, "You Never Let Go" by Matt Redman. I witnessed Marv and Carol gripping each other's hand out of the corner of my eye. And they sang with strengthend voices, taking the words of the song to hear. Are you familiar? Here you go...

YOU NEVER LET GO by Matt Redman
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth
(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You
(Chorus 2x's)


Please continue to lift up Marv and his family. I feel in my heart, and today - I sensed it in Carol, that Marv's earthly journey is almost done. Carol said that Marv told her the number 7 kept popping into his head today. She said, "that's biblical". If I recall my teaching from Pastor Rod correctly, the number 7 is in reference to "being made complete". If that is true, then I clearly sense a divine message being sent.

Despite all we are going through, we always need to remember that God is good, and He never lets go of us. Even when we are angry at Him, depressed, feeling hurt, or extremely ill. When we are down-hearted, weary, and feel we cannot go another day...God picks us up and gets us through.

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